life is so fragile

i feel at times, im really childish.. y i always end up feeling so sad over things that isnt so material at all.. y i always take such a small things ending up like such a big matter.. i shud try to c things in a more wider view instead looking it like a very very small view.. life isnt bout love, which we all thinks everyday such as waiting for a prince charming or anyone.

life is about love the person we care.. care bout the person that we still can. cherish the person when he or she is still living n breathing the air with us. call the person jus to say Hello. tell the person that to always love n take care of urself. reminded them that to always stay healthy. even, we wont b seeing the person like everyday. but, we will always wish him the best n healthy always..

last9, my mother finally told me that our uncle had jus passed away last monday, 19 september, 2011. eventhough, i cannot seem to remember how he looks like. but, i feel sorry. i was having bad mood of my stupid hair.. somehow, i have been living in this little stupid room once again. that i dint noticed that other stuffs is much more serious.. now, to think bout my grandmother. i realli feel sorry for her.. i feel so sad whenever i think of her suffering like this. i feel like crying whenever i think of it.. she is an old woman now. n to c her sons n daughter to leave this world earlier than her. this is a very very sad sad moment.. i dont noe wat wud really happen to me either to c my loves one to leave me like this.

i jus wished my grandma can be alright.. n all i cud think of.. i wud realli persuade my dad n mum to drive back to sibu after i finished my exam. i do not care whether i feel comfy or not. i jus wanted to c her. i wanted to c whether she is alright.. at least, my mum has the chance to c her n spend some time with her brothers too.. life is too short to wait.. live well n cherish so that we wont live regretly..

-24.09.2011-

心受伤了。。

今天晚上终于遇到他和那个女人。 他说他和一斑朋友一起去看戏。 他跟我说去那边看戏，会让他的心情不好。而且，那边的戏院很老压。他叫我回去看。他的理由就是这样。。而我相信他的话。也随便的让他。 可是，今晚，他看的戏就是在我之前都一经跟他说好了。所以，这个就成为我的理由，生气他了。不想看到他了。不想和他说话了。也取消明天晚上的晚餐。也让我一整个晚上忍着。忍忍了到我回家，也要快乐。到了房间就不能停着哭了。结果，还是要被妈妈发现我的痛苦。我的伤心。我的心有碎了。

我的心又受伤了。。我的心已经很久没那么痛。先在又感觉了。让我又哭了。。为什么？？我已经都关了。关了。。可是为什么还是那么痛。。今晚就让我哭吧。。一直的哭哭吧。。所以，我可以忘记一切。。这次回来就是那么伤心。。哭了，也累了，也倦了，。。放弃。眼睛也黑了。都快变熊猫呢。。所以，要努力所以才对的起你的父母弟弟还有你自己。。

08。09。2011